Rant

Sorry for the rant in my last entry! I found out they are good but the coordinator was out of the office last week and that is why she didn't contact me. So far she seems to be really nice and good at her job. We now have a plan in place in about 3 weeks I will be going to DC for my pretesting! I am excited to get this started! I will have a full day of things going on so we can fit it all in one trip. Once this trip is done just wait for results, legalities, and timing for my body then we will be under way. I know it will not be the June transfer that we hoped for but it will be happening hopefully in July. I can't say for sure because we all know that things can come up and change the plans we have laid out. I am sure the time will be good for my body. I know how impatient one could get during this process but I actually have not been that yet with everything else I had going on this month. It will set in and I will eagerly await the day of the transfer. We are set in motion and I really am ecstatic!

Fears

I have so much going on in my house right now it is crazy busy! I love this time but it can be very stressful also. When I started this process again I asked the agency if I could work with the same fertility clinic again because they were great. This clinic is smaller where everyone in there knew me and my situation. The very first time I was with a larger clinic and felt like I was just a number and my concerns sometimes went to the wayside. Not that I wasn't important but they were just dealing with so many people that I was one in many. Unfortunately the agency did not have anyone working with them at this time so I agreed to consider  another clinic. I am glad I was matched with the intended parents that I am I just wish they were working with another clinic. So far my experience with the clinic is minimal but they want my BMI lower, which I understand, but I did get pregnant at the same weight I am now the last time. Also I got them all of my records for review almost three weeks ago and still have not heard from them. This shouldn't have taken that long and also there are some tests they want to do during a day in my cycle that just passed so now if they want to do those tests we have to wait a whole month for that. The parents hoped to do the transfer in June but now it might not happen till July or maybe even August. My biggest peeve when it comes to this is communication and with the bigger clinics they are so busy you don't always get the communication that you want so I guess we will have to see how this turns out.

Waiting

The waiting is the hardest part of all this I do remember it from the last time. This time though has not been as bad partially because I know the process and also because this just happens to be at a very busy time of year. The last time this waiting was in November so not much going on then. This time we have two baseball teams, a DC trip for Toby, the end of school stuff I am helping with, and after all that a trip to Iowa to see my nephew graduate high school. So like I said very busy. The parents and I are communicating and I know this wait is hard for them but soon things will start to move at warp speed and hopefully before you know it they will have one or two babies to hold. We are now waiting on the clinic and contracts. They finally have all my records so I should hear from them next week. This is so exciting I can not wait! I know in my hear that I am doing the right thing and with the right family. We will get there but waiting is a killer!

For my intended parents I will translate this for you!

A espera é a pior parte de tudo isso eu me lembro da última vez. Desta vez porém não foi tão mau parcialmente porque eu sei que o processo e também porque isso só acontece de ser uma época muito ocupada do ano. A última vez que esta espera foi em novembro não tanto acontecendo então. Desta vez que temos dois times de beisebol, uma viagem de DC para Toby, a fim de coisas da escola estou ajudando com e depois de tudo o que uma viagem de Iowa para ver meu sobrinho pós ensino médio. Então como eu disse muito ocupado. Os pais e estão se comunicando e sei esperar é difícil para eles, mas logo as coisas começarão a se mover em velocidade de dobra e espero que antes que você perceba eles terão um ou dois bebês para segurar. Agora estamos esperando na clínica e contratos. Finalmente, eles têm todos os meus registros deveria ouvi-los na próxima semana. Isso é tão emocionante, que eu não posso esperar! Eu sei em meu ouvir que eu estou fazendo a coisa certa e com a família certa. Nós chegaremos lá, mas a espera é um assassino!