D-Day

I am 11 days from D-Day! I am excited for the father's to meet their new baby but also ready to get the baby out. There are a lot of mixed feelings that go with delivery. I am very happy for the new family that I have helped create! I am also nervous about the delivery itself. I expressed my worry over the spinal and my husband said well you have had 3 epidurals and 2 spinals so it is no big deal. I had to explain to him that anytime they stick a big needle into your back it is indeed a huge deal! What if something goes awry and I have spinal headaches or some other issue. Then there is the fact that they are cutting me open! So many complications that could possibly happen. Also the bleeding risks and hysterectomy risks. Then there is recovery. I am only getting older so recoveries are just going to be more and more difficult. Doing day to day stuff may be hard and with the boys back at school I may be on my own during the days. I know this is all normal stuff but I can't help but worry. I believe that everything will be fine but these things will still be in the back of my mind.