Interesting day!

I am 38 weeks today, and my doctor requires that at every visit after 32 weeks that I have a nonstress test or an ultrasound. This is because of the IVF and the gestational diabetes. This week I had an NST. Every time they got her heart beat on the machine she would move so it took them a while to get it but she couldn't get a good strip. Their ultrasound tech was not in today so they sent me to the hospital to get some more monitoring. Mind you my first appointment is at 10 and I get to the hospital just before noon. They get me all hooked up and tell me they will be monitoring for 30 minutes to an hour. I lay there on the bed with these monitors on not being able to move around too much for 2 hours. With the test they are checking her movement and heartrate. This timeframe is usually her nap time and I hadn't eaten since breakfast its 1:30 by now. She was just starting to get active when they came in to do an ultrasound. My amniotic fluid was good and she was growing accordingly and moving on the ultrasound. They decided all was good and I could (finally!!!!) go home. I go in less than a week for my preop testing then my c-section is next Friday. Hopefully she cooperates and waits until then!

D-Day

I am 11 days from D-Day! I am excited for the father's to meet their new baby but also ready to get the baby out. There are a lot of mixed feelings that go with delivery. I am very happy for the new family that I have helped create! I am also nervous about the delivery itself. I expressed my worry over the spinal and my husband said well you have had 3 epidurals and 2 spinals so it is no big deal. I had to explain to him that anytime they stick a big needle into your back it is indeed a huge deal! What if something goes awry and I have spinal headaches or some other issue. Then there is the fact that they are cutting me open! So many complications that could possibly happen. Also the bleeding risks and hysterectomy risks. Then there is recovery. I am only getting older so recoveries are just going to be more and more difficult. Doing day to day stuff may be hard and with the boys back at school I may be on my own during the days. I know this is all normal stuff but I can't help but worry. I believe that everything will be fine but these things will still be in the back of my mind.