Funny

In all my life I never wished for my period to start but with all of the stuff going into this process I hope that it starts and on time! When you are going through the fertility process you are excited about the strangest things and look forward to thing that you never thought you would be. The waiting is the worse part and the fact that you have no control over when it will happen. My husband and I can not have any more kids so before this I didn't care if it ever came because I knew I wasn't pregnant. Now I am praying for it to come and can't wait until it does. When it comes I will be jumping for joy. That is so funny to me.

Worries

My biggest worry is that I will never be able to get pregnant and I will let everyone down. I have never had any issues getting pregnant ( or staying that way for that matter). So now I am scared after losing the first pregnancy that it will happen again or we will not conceive at all. I know there are people who want this so much and what if I can't do it? Was I not meant to give someone this wonderful gift? I still don't have an answer as to what happened the first time so that makes it scarier. Maybe there was some issue with me. We will probably never know but I read all of the surrogacy success stories and makes me wonder if that will ever be me. I sure hope it will!!

2nd try

I have started the injections and if all goes well we will be going back to DC at the end of Feb. I really can't wait and I hope for her sake that it all takes.

The beginning

This summer I found the perfect agency and was matched with an intended parent. My husband and I went to DC and went through some psychological and medical testing with everything coming out OK. We just waited for my cycle then we started some medications. I was so excited to get a transfer date it was November 13th. My sister and I took the trip back to DC where there were two embryos implanted into my uterus. Nine days later I had to go get a blood test to see if they implanted and they like to see the Beta around 100 and mine was 174! We were all so excited! Three days later I had to get another blood test to confirm that it was all good and they want the numbers to at least double in that time span. Well mine went up over 700 but prior to the test some bleeding started. We had to go on and just hope that it was one of the thousands of other things causing the problem. A week or so  later we went back to get another blood test to see if it was indeed a miscarriage. That was really devastating to hear.

Intro

With inspiration from my son I decided to blog about my surrogacy journey. I am Mandi a 31 year old female with 3 sons. Tyler is 10, Toby is 8, and Trevor is 5. I have been married for 10 years and love being a mother and a wife. About 5 years ago I decided I would like to become a surrogate. My feeling is I had a rather easy time being pregnant and birthing my boys and wanted to do it for someone whom may not be as fortunate as I have been. After all I don't know what I would do with out my boys and I thought it would be a blessing if I could do it for someone else.