Good News

So last week I went for my blood test and the first one was over 800. They want it to double in 2 days and my next one was 1983! So I am definitely pregnant but it is still early. I need to go this week for an ultrasound. I am very excited to be pregnant again! I have had a lot of other stuff going on too. I looked up my insurance policy to see if I could find the hospital and a doctor for me however I couldn't find any in network hospitals in Kentucky at all. That is a problem because with the laws I need to deliver there. So we are in the midst of trying to figure this out since we were assured in the beginning that it would be covered in this insurance plan. Also Trevor broke his arm so we had a lot going on with that. There is so much more happening that I will not bore you with. I am just hoping all goes well and I get to deliver another healthy baby!

Positive vibes

Well I had the transfer and it went well. We only had one small issue on this trip. You know it is not a real trip if something doesn't happen. John and I had the worst rental car experience. DO NOT ever rent from Advantage. When we picked up the car they give you a paper and you have to go over the car yourself then when you leave the lot they don't even check it. Then I noticed the car was unclean there was trash on the floor and stuff in the glove box that clearly belonged to one of the previous renters. So we turn it in almost 20 minutes before the allotted time and there is no one in the lot to check you in so we went inside. She told us just leave the keys and we will send a receipt by email. A few hours later I got the invoice and it was $20 more than it was supposed to be. After looking at it they checked it in 1 hour and 2 minutes after the allotted time so they charged $10 per hour over. They actually counted the 2 minutes as 1 hour. This was the worst experience ever and I will never rent from them again! Anyways I have spent the last week relaxing and trying to keep calm to give this embryo every chance I can. It seems to be going well and no bleeding so I am cautiously optimistic. I have a blood test next week and need positive vibes for a good result. Thank you so much to all of my faithful readers.

Transfer

After many delays we finally have a transfer date! Now another issue popped up and my new insurance does not cover surrogacy at all. I had been trying to get the coverage booklet from John's work and finally got it but with the exclusion I would have to be signed up for a policy to cover it by Sunday. So it is a rush to get all of it into place. There is so much going on with this sometimes I get frustrated but I know it will all work out the way it is supposed to. I have to take a breath and believe that it will or else I will lose my mind. I am just going to focus on the transfer date and making sure that everything works out the way it is supposed to. I am letting go of all the stress and trying to just enjoy the experience.

Luck of the Draw

I know I haven't posted lately but I really needed to take the time for myself to figure out my feelings. I have expressed my concerns with the clinic before but they really reinforced my feelings during the transfer. I hate to compare this to my other experiences because all doctors are not the same. I did not agree with their procedure and the doctor was somewhat cold. I felt more like a number than a person. I bet no one in that office knows my name without looking at my chart. The last time it was a small office and they all knew who I was. This is a big change. As most of you know the transfer last month did not work. The intended parents and I both struggled with it. We both had doubts about moving on but with support from our friends and family we decided to try again. I really hope that it happens this time as I am sure they are too. If it doesn't happen this time I guess we both have some major soul searching to do to figure out if this is the right thing to do again. Maybe things will be a little different this time (I hope!). We will be starting the medications again soon so wish me luck!

Transfer

I had my transfer a few days ago now. All of the clinics do things different and this has not changed. All of their procedures were not at all the same as the previous clinics. It was different but I hope that it all works out for the best. I am very hopeful that things will go the way they are supposed to. I take a blood test the day before Thanksgiving to see if it took or not. I know that is not definitive because the first two times I had what they called chemical pregnancies. My body was producing the hormones but I wasn't really pregnant. I just have to wait and see.

Skype

I got to Skype with my current intended parents yesterday and the twins and their parents today! We cleared up all of the stuff with one versus two embryos and though they are not getting what they wanted we are at peace with the decisions made.That does not mean we are all happy about it. It is what it is and we don't have many options open to us right now. We are just hoping for at least one healthy baby. Seeing the twins this close to my transfer just reminded me what a great experience this can be! They are both walking and babbling. I am remembering what a great gift I have to give. I still have my worries that it won't take but I know it can. I have to just have faith that it will all work out the way it is supposed to.

Questions

Recently I was asked by the intended parents how many embryo's we were going to transfer, well in the beginning she expressed wanting to do two because she would really like to have twins. I agreed that I was OK with doing two since I had carried twins before I think I could handle it again. However the doctors at the clinic we are going to does not like to do more than one at a time. The risks are lower and if it splits you only have twins whereas if you do two and they both split then you have quads. I get the risks and it also goes up with me having a second set of multiples. The mother expressed really wanting twins so they said as long as both parties understand the risks they would be willing to do two. Today I emailed the clinic to see how many they planned on transferring she said just one that the doctor communicated with the parents and they agreed to one and signed a paper to that effect. I am just really confused now. Did the doctor convince them to reduce the number by exaggerating the risks? Did they use the language barrier to their advantage? Did they threaten not to do it if she didn't agree? I really don't think that anyone would do this and hope that it is just my mind coming up with reasons. Maybe the doctor told them the risks and they agreed to one because they know that less complications could occur and they were more likely to have one healthy baby. The chance of having two sick babies or something happening to me might have been a deciding factor. I am not upset we are only doing one. I know it will be easier for me to handle with just one. I just want to be sure that this is really what the parents want and they are not being coerced into something they don't really want. I just want them to have a healthy child or children whatever is meant to be. I am not sure and don't want to think the worst of the situation so I am going to believe in the best until I can talk to the parents to determine their reasoning.