My cycle started today so we are starting the process this time is much different. Not only do we have a different Dr. we also are using fresh embryos, whereas the last two transfers I had were frozen embryos so the whole process is vastly changed from the other times. I guess I have to make an impromptu trip to DC in the next week or so. I will have to be there for two appointments on consecutive days for some testing. It will be fun I am just not sure who will be available to go with me this time. It was unexpected, since I didn't have to do this for the last time, so I hadn't made prior plans. I am so glad to get the process started though.

I signed and sent my letter of intent with a couple and their Dr. received my records. We are on to the next step of the process. We sign contracts and wait on my cycle which will be here any day now. As soon as that happens we will start the fertility process. This is really exciting I can't wait and I will keep you updated Thanks to all who are following this journey of mine!

Well I had a conference call with some intended parents today. It was great! They have got me excited about the process again. I really hope for both of us that this process works. I just can't wait to get it started. I also had my first Skype experience it went OK!

I have been waiting since June to move forward with the third attempt with my IP and I found out today that she will not be continuing with the journey. I am in some ways sad about the decision but I believe it is what is for the best. I truly think that it must not have been meant to happen for us. Don't worry this has not ended my goal of becoming a surrogate. I am in contact with the agency to be set up with another set of parents she has some in mind and will contact them and get back with me in the next few days. I just hope that I can give this gift to someone! I am excited and nervous about starting the process over again. I will keep you posted!

I went through ultrasounds, injections, and pills so we set a transfer date for Tuesday the 18th. Great right? Well yesterday I got a call from the IP's people and with all the fears and emotions she has decided to hold off for another month and start the process over again. I really do understand what she means this is stressful on both of us maybe a little extra time is what we need. However I do wish these concerns would have come up prior to me starting all the treatments. That being said I am not upset or holding any thing against anyone. It is hard for all of us and not knowing if it will even work is a big fear for me and her both. I hope for everyone's sanity that this break is the defining factor and we have good results.

I know it has been so long since I have posted but I had to take some time off of everything surrogacy related to get into the right frame of mind. I was frustrated and stressed when the transfer didn't work last time. I have went over it in my own head again and again trying to figure out why this isn't happening but I have resigned to the fact that there is only about a 30% success rate and there is no specific reasons why it did or did not work. I think I am in a much better place right now and we will be doing transfer #3 in the next couple weeks. Let's hope the third time is a charm!

Frustrating

So I went on Friday and got an ultrasound and unfortunately there was no pregnancy sac in my uterus so I lost it again. I know that if it is meant to happen it will eventually. We are just waiting for my #'s to go back to 0 then I am guessing we start all over again. This is so frustrating for me but I can only imagine how the mother feels. I hope the third time is a charm and we can finally do this. I hate to feel like I am disappointing someone who just wants this so bad. But I am sure this time there was nothing I could have done differently. I did all that I was supposed to do and I also reduced my stress as much as possible so I know it wasn't anything I did. I am at the mercy of the embryos and my body and apparently they are not cooperating right now I just pray they get with the program.