Delivery Date

This will be my last blog before delivery in two days! I am very excited. This time the process has been so much different than the last. I really thought doing it the second time would make it easier instead it taught me that every situation is nothing alike. This journey has had many ups and downs and has showed me even more about myself and what my wants will be when I do this again. Each time something happens good or bad it makes you see the possibilities and helps you see the dream. I love being able to do this and will always have respect for all the people who can't and the ones who will see my journey as a little push do what makes them happy. I really wish I could reach out and do this for everyone that has problems having children but I know being one person I can only do what I can do. I know I say I am going to do this one more time but you never know. The doctor recommends no more than 4 cesareans so I might just do it as many as he deems safe. This experience really enriches my family along with the families I am working with. I hope my children see how important it is to do what you can to help others. I also hope to inspire other people to help in any way you can. I know surrogacy is not for everyone but there is so much more you can do to make someones life just a little better. Final words: Look at the bigger picture and if you can make a small part of that just a tad brighter be brave enough to do it! Love you all!

9 Days!

So I went to the doctor yesterday and he decided since the baby's heart rate and my BP were good we should just wait on the c-section. We are going to give her as much development time as we can. I am still having some contractions but still nothing that would produce any results. I am exhausted and uncomfortable. I only have 9 days left and they are sure to be the longest days of my life but in the end they are all worth it. I really can't wait to see the miracle that I helped create!

Big baby

I went to my normal appointment yesterday. The doctor checked the heart rate and it was all good. He then measured my abdomen, I am 36 weeks 3 days, and he looks at me perplexed. He said does the baby feel big to you? How to answer that question because we have discussed my concerns on her size on several occasions. I said yes she feels big compared to my boys. The biggest baby I delivered was 7lbs 8oz. He proceeded to say that I am measuring full term. He asked how long until the c-section and I told him 17 days. At this time I can tell his mind is turning and he is really thinking about it. Now the size isn't as big of a deal when you are getting a cesarean but there are still other risks like preterm labor, and just getting the baby out of the incision. He finally decides that I should come in next week and he will check me out then possibly send me for an ultrasound. After all that he may schedule the surgery for sooner than planned. They can't do it before 37 and a half weeks without medical necessity so we are just waiting to see. I had to kick my butt into gear and pack my bag. I am ready when ever she is.

Almost there!

Well it has been a while and so much has happened. This pregnancy is kicking me in the butt! I am very exhausted all the time and uncomfortable. This baby is on the big side and she is very active so my belly is moving all the time. Sometimes it can be painful but it is worth it. Well a week and a half ago I started having contractions they weren't regular or frequent but I went to be checked out just in case. They checked the baby, she was good, and then checked to see if they had made any change to my cervix, which luckily they had not. My cervix is still closed and high so he just told me keep an eye on them and if they become frequent or stronger to come back in. So crisis averted. Well this week I went to step off my porch and landed wrong. I sprained my ankle but no major damage. Those who know me well know how graceful I am so this should not surprise you at all. Today I am 36 weeks pregnant and beginning my 9th month of pregnancy. In exactly three weeks I am scheduled for a c-section and I really am ready this time. I think I will do this one more time, I know it will be hard but I can't stop thinking about how hard it must be for those who can not have their own children. Thanks for reading!