Luck of the Draw

I know I haven't posted lately but I really needed to take the time for myself to figure out my feelings. I have expressed my concerns with the clinic before but they really reinforced my feelings during the transfer. I hate to compare this to my other experiences because all doctors are not the same. I did not agree with their procedure and the doctor was somewhat cold. I felt more like a number than a person. I bet no one in that office knows my name without looking at my chart. The last time it was a small office and they all knew who I was. This is a big change. As most of you know the transfer last month did not work. The intended parents and I both struggled with it. We both had doubts about moving on but with support from our friends and family we decided to try again. I really hope that it happens this time as I am sure they are too. If it doesn't happen this time I guess we both have some major soul searching to do to figure out if this is the right thing to do again. Maybe things will be a little different this time (I hope!). We will be starting the medications again soon so wish me luck!